[He doesn't really get why Vash is asking, like please he's trying to flirt with you who CARES about religion, but. He supposes it makes sense. It's part of Ain's history as much as anything else he's brought up today.]
"Good" can mean a lot of things. Was I good at being pious? Mmm... kiiiind of? Haha, I was super into it when I was younger, maybe... eighteen-ish, when I first took my vows and all. But... [He leans back in his chair and shrugs.] ...the Goddess wasn't ever really as kind and loving as I think she's said to be. If she was, I would have been... happy, working under Her. And other people in the world would be happy, too.
Was I good at praying? No, not really. I'd just make stuff up. "Please give me shiny things, amen". I wasn't good at being generous with money, either, but I was good at healing people who were sick and couldn't afford to see a doctor. I wasn't good at showing up for services, unlike my brothers, and I really didn't care to clean the pews or anything.
And I definitely wasn't good at being celibate. Ishmael would be furious if she knew I'm gay, too. You're not allowed to do that in the Church.
[Just. Driving that point home, as he laughs a bit awkwardly, because he's still... not Getting it. He doesn't understand the sudden tense atmosphere, or why it really matters when he said it was in the past. Vash looks upset, almost, and all Ain can do is cock his head to the side as his face falls in turn.]
I think, based on all of that, I was actually a bad priest. ...why?
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[He doesn't really get why Vash is asking, like please he's trying to flirt with you who CARES about religion, but. He supposes it makes sense. It's part of Ain's history as much as anything else he's brought up today.]
"Good" can mean a lot of things. Was I good at being pious? Mmm... kiiiind of? Haha, I was super into it when I was younger, maybe... eighteen-ish, when I first took my vows and all. But... [He leans back in his chair and shrugs.] ...the Goddess wasn't ever really as kind and loving as I think she's said to be. If she was, I would have been... happy, working under Her. And other people in the world would be happy, too.
Was I good at praying? No, not really. I'd just make stuff up. "Please give me shiny things, amen". I wasn't good at being generous with money, either, but I was good at healing people who were sick and couldn't afford to see a doctor. I wasn't good at showing up for services, unlike my brothers, and I really didn't care to clean the pews or anything.
And I definitely wasn't good at being celibate. Ishmael would be furious if she knew I'm gay, too. You're not allowed to do that in the Church.
[Just. Driving that point home, as he laughs a bit awkwardly, because he's still... not Getting it. He doesn't understand the sudden tense atmosphere, or why it really matters when he said it was in the past. Vash looks upset, almost, and all Ain can do is cock his head to the side as his face falls in turn.]
I think, based on all of that, I was actually a bad priest. ...why?