[Ain sounds briefly introspective, but he quickly pushes all of that down. Vash wanting him feels dangerous in a way he can't put words to. Or, maybe it's not so much "dangerous" as it is "extremely desirable" and Ain's stupid brain is conflating the two because he's anxious as hell.
Why does that make him anxious, actually? Is it because, if something goes wrong, he loses Vash entirely? Is that it? Is it easier for him to not want to be wanted because it's easier to put up mental barricades?
If only Ain was thinking that, and not about how much he wants to be wanted, too, and how that's scary and weird and oh no.]
Haha, I'd... want you even if we weren't sleeping together.
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[Ain sounds briefly introspective, but he quickly pushes all of that down. Vash wanting him feels dangerous in a way he can't put words to. Or, maybe it's not so much "dangerous" as it is "extremely desirable" and Ain's stupid brain is conflating the two because he's anxious as hell.
Why does that make him anxious, actually? Is it because, if something goes wrong, he loses Vash entirely? Is that it? Is it easier for him to not want to be wanted because it's easier to put up mental barricades?
If only Ain was thinking that, and not about how much he wants to be wanted, too, and how that's scary and weird and oh no.]
Haha, I'd... want you even if we weren't sleeping together.